dec 13...
22.26
tuesday
12 days to christmas xxx
wow it seems like yesterday when last years christmas was approaching...
trying t think of the things that happened this time last year!!
how different that time was from now...
how things were,
and how many has changed ...
the turn of events has actually surprised me no end
cant sleep,
thinking of how things will be,
now christmas is soon here
and then the new year...
lots going on ,,,
lots happenning...
sometimes i cant keep up myself
and just keep on wondering!!!
lots of good things i want to look forward to in the new year,,,
cant wait for this year to end...
when i think of my life,
i just cant believe how things havent gone the way
i thought that is right xxx
lots of tears,
confusion and laughter...
but i have to be ready to let go..
if things that i thought i was after...
chased things that i thought would make things better...
hmmm
got tired,really tired...
now i am back to zero,not knowing where to go...
but feel relief coming to me,
to know that things will sort them selves out
rather than forcing things to show xxx
how difficult it is to find this elusive thing ...
happiness and love
after all thats had happened i am not sure anymore
if this is possible?
but i musnt keep looking back,,,
this is not where i want to go...
i have to keep moving forward..
make sure that things will be alright :)))))
i wan tto look forward to xmas
and the day before new year when
we will be together...
omg cant wait for the day to be near!!!
keep my mind busy with work...
with things i want to do in the new year ...
Leiths i hope i woould be able to do,,,
make sure i save up for me to go through...;))
my dance class,
and Life Drawing Society
thinking about it actually excites me xxx
works been rather busy...
male boss and lady boss having a bit of dingdongs
really cant be bothered to get involved!! haha
specially that my now life feels like topsy turvy lol
i wonder how it will be,
i just hope life would be
as easy as i wanted it to be...
and to find that elusive thing...finally!!!
i wonder what my darling sd is doing?
is he thinking of me???
then suddenly he messaged me :)))
with all these mish mash...
i just want to think of nice thoughts ...
for once,atleast that makes me happy xxxx
